As I was getting my blog ready to be up and going again, I came across this post that I was working on last fall. I don’t know why I never posted it, I think I hit my wall and deleted everything before I finalized this post. But now that I am getting back in to my blog and writing, I thought I would share this. It was good reminder for me, so I am hoping it helps one of you, like it helped me!

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It was just another afternoon. I had my 3 yr old napping, 5 yr old at school and was nursing my 8 mos old getting her ready to go down for her nap. It had been a long week (as most are with a 5 yr old, 3 yr old, and 8 mos old.) and I was beyond exhausted. While rocking my baby, I felt myself go down this spiral of all the negative things I could find in my life. My house was a mess, my body was a mess(to put it nicely). I forgot to send my daughter with her special “mobile” that I was suppose to put together for her birthday party at school. We were going on day 5 of eating out for dinner! Just comparing myself to what other moms were doing that I wasn’t. My #momfails were everywhere I looked. I then moved my focus off of me and on to my husband. All the things he wasn’t doing. How disconnected I have been feeling from him because of his distractions at work. I was making a list in my head of all the things about him that, pissed me right off. I couldn’t stop thinking about all that I had to be sad about in my life. And how maybe I would be happy if and when “A,B” or “C” Happened.

Then something changed.

I looked out the window and was SHOCKED to see our grass was a bright green. I’m sure you’re thinking-well yeah, grass is green. But no-no. Not ours. Our sprinklers had been broken all summer. ALL SUMMER. In UTAH! So, needless to say our yard was DEAD. No green, anywhere. It is now officially fall season, so I had accepted the fact that after the winter months, we will probably have to get new grass. I really did not want to do that and get new sprinklers, because #YIKES *$$$* so I had a guy come check them out the previous day to see if there was anything we could do in my final attempt to save something! Not even kidding, It had been a day. ONE. DAY. Not a minute longer. And after that one day of watering morning and night, our yard was saved. All it needed, was water.

And it hit me. “The grass is greener..where you water it”

My house is the way it is. My body is the way it is. My life is crazy. My husband is starting a new business and has so much going on. All the things I had been focusing so negatively on, are simply just a part of my life right now. No way around it. But WHY go on being negative? And allowing my negative thoughts to consume me? When all I have to do is make the choice to make my life the best it can be! This is my life, and I only get one! Why not make the best of it?! In that moment, I made a choice to water the grass where I was. My relationships with my kids, my husband, my family members and friends. They are my life. So I’m going to make it all, GREEN!

Things are going to happen. Life, is going to happen. But no matter what we do, it’s going to happen. So just make the decision to water your grass, Today. Because.. “The grass is greener, Where you water it”

With Love,

Jocelyn Havili